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Flashback Friday’s: Becoming a Morning Person

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I am a self-proclaimed night owl. I feel most productive (or maybe my mind is just more active and creative) at night. About 10-15 years ago it was insomnia but I learned to channel all that sort of mindless energy into doing things – reading, writing, listening to music or even watching tv with the timer set so it would turn off after I dozed off.

I have tried many times to become a morning person. Sometimes because I wanted to be one of those productive people that work up early and got so many things done prior to starting my actual day. Other times it was because I had a job that started at 7:30AM which meant I had to be awake early anyways. Let me just say the having to do it because of my job made me not want to do it even more. HA! I now have to leave my house at 7:30AM for work instead of be at work at 7:30AM. Very happy for this.

The past couple of weeks, however, I have been reading a lot of posts and watching a lot of YouTube videos on becoming a morning person. Most people that have tried it say they love how much they get done when they wake up early. The main tips I hear are starting going to bed a little earlier each night and waking up earlier each morning. Also avoiding being too stimulated before bed and allowing natural light to come in during the morning hours is up there as well.

Even though I know the basics on how to become a morning person it is much like my working out and eating (mostly)healthier decision, there have been many ups and downs in this journey.

Speaking of health, wellness and working out… After nearly a month of being sick I finally started training with my trainer again. One of the workout homework assignments she gave me is to start running in the morning so that I have it done first thing and I avoid making up excuses or being “too busy” to do it later. This has worked very well so far. You can read more about my running and training here.

Becoming a Morning Person

This morning I woke up at around 5:30AM even though my alarm is set for 7:00AM. I was going to crawl back in bed after a bathroom pit stop and sipping some water but I happened to glance at my phone and yet another becoming a morning person video was suggested to me [here is that specific video].

After watching the video I was about to lay back down but decided to come and work on the post above and since it was short and sweet I decided to come to this website and work on this post that you are currently reading. It is now 6:38AM and I am still tempted to go back to bed but I am feeling rather successful to get two posts posted in one day prior to 7:00AM and they aren’t even pre-scheduled to post!

As I opened up WordPress I was thinking about this past week and what I have done. I realized aside from working, going shopping, meditating and watching The Sinner or Grace & Frankie on Netflix I have had a pretty laid back week. One thing that really stuck out, however, is that I have been watching an abundance of videos about becoming a morning person and how to be more productive in general.

I’m not sure if this is a subconscious thing or not but I have been waking up unprompted between the hours of 4:30AM and 5:30AM nearly every morning. Usually I will drink some water and fall back asleep but lately I have found myself doing things like following up on emails, reading articles, catching up on global events or even like this morning, working on blog posts. It takes a little self talk to roll out of bed (or at least sit up in bed) and work on some things, however, I am becoming a morning person and it isn’t even because I am forcing myself to become one.

How about you? Are you becoming a morning person?

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Flashback Friday’s: Sick & Tired

Happy Friday Folks!
I hope that you had a wonderful week. As I prepare this post (I usually write and edit Flashback Friday’s posts throughout the week) I am fighting a terrible cold and cough. I have been surrounded by coworkers and customers with colds and the flu so it was pretty much a given that I would end up catching some type of bug. Two days of just resting and hydrating myself has done me well but I may need a day or two more to really get back to being myself again.

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Friday’s are great days usually – it is payday, the end of the week (and start of the weekend) but since I’m in a crummy mood I’m gonna just share a couple things I am sick & tired of so I apologize if this is missing a joyful message today. lol

I am Sick & Tired of…
+ Being stressed out about things that are completely out of my control. I will do what I can on my part and just release the rest to the Universe. Stress is just overall sh*tty – the feeling of it sucks and the way it can lead to me being sick is just not worth it in the end.
+ People assuming they know something about me just because I carry a characteristic of someone they knew in the past. You can’t fully know me unless you take a chance to know me. Stop assuming sh*t.
+ This weather. It really needs to make up it’s mind. It was cool and breezy yesterday and today it is storming and humid. This weather always leads to people getting allergies, the cold and/or the flu. Just stoppit already.
+ Your president. That is not my president and I still for the life of me don’t understand how the joke (of him even running) ended up with him being the president. You sure this isn’t an early April Fools Joke? Because it makes us (the U.S.) look like a bunch of fools if you ask me.
+ Twitter not allowing us to edit our tweets. Get with the program.

That concludes the things I am currently sick and tired of. I’m sure there are others but my head is so cloudy and my sinuses are so stuffed up I can’t think straight. lol

Anywho, I hope you all have a wonderful weekend and stay healthy out there. Water, rest, theraflu and ACV drink have been my friends.

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Flashback Friday’s: Living Through Loss

Trigger Warning: I recently lost my Father so this post may get emotional and be triggering for people that are still in mourning, bereavement and so on.

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F*ck 2016.
Seriously. I had such a positive outlook for this year and it seems like every time things are going well I get hit with a curve ball. The past couple of years have been challenging but 2016 is really the year that I feel is testing me and taking me to my limit. I am at my breaking point and each time I really want to give up someone comes to me and says something positive, loving and/or encouraging.

I went into 2016 with health and and other personal issues – I got through them the best I could. I felt lost and unsure on so many occasions but things slowly started getting better. I was feeling happy and healthy but over the summer I suffered a serious allergic reaction which sent me to the hospital for 3 days while they monitored me. I now have certain foods I have to avoid and will have to carry an Epi Pen with me for the rest of my life.

Soon after my hospital stay, my Aunt fell ill and ended up in the hospital. She suffered several heart attacks and passed away. I was thousands of miles away and I felt so guilty and frustrated because I wasn’t able to be there to tell her I love her and be with my family. I still have days I reach for the phone to call her only to remember that she is no longer there.

I thought that would be where the struggle and pain of this year would taper off. I was wrong.

Early in October I called my Dad and he told me that he wasn’t feeling well – he thought he had the flu. He apologized for cutting our call short. We exchanged our “I love you’s” and little did I know that would be my last time hearing his voice.

Soon after our last conversation he ended up in the hospital for pneumonia and ended up being put in a medically-induced coma so he could be intubated. Awhile later he seemed to be doing better – tube was taken out and he was moved out of ICU. Within two days he had a heart attack and was intubated again. My Mom worked some magic so that I could come to Georgia and be with him and my family. I thought he would kick this.

He had a total of 3 heart attacks and some seizures. There was too much damage done to his brain and things looked grim. I tried to remain positive and present but I would just cry randomly and my sleep schedule continues to suffer. Once I had the courage to ask the prognosis I knew that even if he was taken off the machines and could breath on his own – he would not be the same person we all knew and loved.

He was removed from life support on a Friday, moved to a Hospice facility on a Saturday and passed away on Sunday, October 30, 2016.

Living Through Loss

It has been a week since I stood in that ICU room while they removed the breathing tube and this weekend we are holding a memorial service for him. Anything that reminds me of him either makes me cry or makes my heart ache – sometimes both at the same time.

I want to sleep because maybe this is just a horrible nightmare yet fear, hurt, resentment and guilt fill my thoughts in the quiet of the night. Why couldn’t I be here sooner? Did he really know how much I loved him? I only eventually sleep because my body just cant take it anymore so it shuts down.

Depression and anxiety constantly knock at my door.

I feel like I am at one place in time and the entire world is just passing me by. I forget what day it is often – days turn to nights right before my eyes. I enjoy time with family but when I am not “busy” I get overwhelmed with grief. I’m an emotional eater yet I let my body feel empty. I feel lost and confused.

I told a friend that reached out to me with comforting words that I feel like I am about to crack open and end up in a dark place. He assured me that I am stronger than I know and if I “go there” I will find my way back out. I have so many wonderful friends and family members – as well as strangers that have reached out to me. I really feel like this support is what has kept me going because there are so many times I just want to give up.

I constantly tell myself that I can get through this. That I am a strong person. I can hear my Dads voice saying “don’t worry suga” – it is reassuring yet hurts at the same time.

This is what it is like living through loss.

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